Mental Health Check In
It's a cold and rainy night. The snow outside is slush. Earlier today I played chapter 12 of PGR which was amazing. And tonight I just finished the final boss of Bravely Default 2.
music: "Spurred Into Flight, Drenched and Fallen - The Night Rises" - BD2
I feel sad, maybe the ending hit me harder than I thought I did. Maybe cuz I didn't accomplish much this break. like what did I even do this break? Calligraphy. Some Japanese. thinking about my change in interests, from game development to something with linguistics.
But rn I feel like I don't want to talk to anyone. These last few days of break made me feel so much like a loser. I guess. I don't want to talk to people because I don't want to burden them with my prescense. I'm too boring and stupid and slow. I don't even like myself half the time. How am I supposed to make friends and
Well last quarter I met like 25 new people. I'll make it my resolution to meet 100 people this year.
Idk this was just a phase. I'm sure I'll be fine but like, still- I hate who I am. For whatever I am, if I'm even a person at all
hoping for the best