to be normal
Maybe I am too self aware of myself, and too aware of everything else around me. I'm an observer- I have always been an observer and always will. I look around at everything, everyone, and wonder- why? Why is this like how it is? How does she feel about that? Would this be connected with that?
How do people find their passions, join highschool clubs, make new friends, connect with people..?
How would I go about becoming like one of them?
Normal. ?
Are "normal" people not aware of life, how it operates, and every little technicality of the world around us? Do they not think why about their lives? Would it be disruptive towards their personal lifestyle to become self aware of life itself?
I just wonder, that perhaps, I am the one who is normal, and not an outcast. I guess not in this society.
I guess the depression's never gonna go away, just like I predicted.